One thing that became apparent to me when I started this was how what I will call the 'domestic abuse' situation between Caine and Juliana was. I realized this had been glossed over when it would have been a traumatic experience. For the longest time, I knew the details of what Caine did but, I never wrote them out for a variety of reasons (one of the smallest being I didn't want to write Caine caned her).
Unfortunatley the whole situation is based slightly on this news story. I have read it but, I did not actually watch the video so I don't know exactly how it goes. It shows that even calling someone stupid is verbal abuse, if done enough.
So, for a little while I was on a soap box.
Music
On that note, I am one of the ignorant people who hear Face Down by Jump Suit apparatus and I never listened to the words to understand it was about domestic violence. There are actually quite a lot of songs about domestic violence I considered using but, this one was the most tame.
Another little in-joke is that Sawyer really likes rap music which is why I picked a rap song (had to find a clean one) for the last chapter. He is listening to rap music in chapter 1 and that has always been apart of the character.
Chapter 4
I had another one of those times when I finished a chapter was ready to add the flourished and finishing touches when it got deleted and I had no idea where it went. So, I had to start over with the skeleton (which I had saved elsewhere). It happens atleast once so I move on.
I really thought this would be longer but it's still longer than the last one. One day I will write a 9,000 word chapter again.
I think these songs do some justice but, TBH I have been having issues coming up with music. I love "C.S Lewis Song" and "My Skin" so I try other things by the artist but usually hate them. Anyway, I want to create some variety in styles so it's not all the same but I went back to some default artist with this one.
Playlist (to the right)
-1- Little Victories by Matt Nathanson
-2- The Mess I Made by Parachute (I have so many songs by them I can't wait to use !)
-3- In the End by Linkin Park
-4- In the End (Piano) Linkin Park
-5- Broken by Lifehouse
-6- Perfect by Simple Plan
