Everybody Smize: By Your Side (II)

 I was wasting time

Georgie Henley (Rose) is the only one who I think is an actual teenager in this collage. The cloest Arrow inspy I could find is model Miles Mcmillan--who looks nothing like this IRL.

Oh, also fun fact: My Mason inspy, Kodi Smit-McPhee,  joins my Rhett inspies (Nicholas Hoult and James Marsden) as an X-men. He plays Nightcrawler in New Mutants. Do all the X-men movies exist in the same universe ?

Also, I can really see Jennifer Lawrence as a young Juliana.


Clara and Emile

Dear Lile,

I loved your 600 word comment, your honesty is everything and I swear it hasn't impacted anything I'm about to post because they've all been pre-written.

I love how you said I got Emile and Clara right and I think the reason I did it so well  because they didn't have any lines !

Rose and Arrow
I don't consider my versions of Rose and Arrow part of Lile's canon. I kind of took the scaffolding and went with it.

Rose's  characterization is mostly based on this paragraph from Greetings from Le Visent when Clara is explaining to Tempest!Fierro he has a daughter:

She likes to draw and read. Her favorite colors are emerald, lilac and rose. She hates technology. She’s very smart though. Always get good grades. She’s has this sweet little voice and sometimes people can’t tell if she’s being polite or condescending which is kind of funny. She doesn’t really like sugar so she sweetness her tea with oranges and cinnamon sticks. Whatever you do don’t call her Rosie. She hates it.

By Your Side 2

Recap
Mason & Co lock themselves in the library during a school shooting and when they get out Nova is arrested as suspect in the shooting. Now Mason needs to find Arrow and Rose again so they can prove Nova was with them the whole time....

By Your Side 2
Playlist
-1- Like Everybody Else by Lennon Stella
-2- Ascolta by Ludovico Einaudi
-3-  There's Probably No Time by Chris Zabriskie
-4- When I Go by Ingrid Michaelson
-5- Don't You by Simple Plan

By Your Side

Who has been spying on me ???? This is literally me writing my 90's Lucely AU

Revising pic.twitter.com/PMhqsONquc

— Meredith Ireland (@MeredithIreland) January 23, 2020

 

Let's Talk Failure 
When I wrote the fanfics I've had to re-read some older serials for details and since my website was in shambles at the time, I usually went through the blog posts. Some of my old posts are super cringe-y but going through them reminded me:

I've failed SO MUCH.

I infamously rebooted Veritas as Vice but I'd totally forgotten Blessed Hearts was a reboot of De Tullieres and UL3 is a reboot of On Higher Ground. It's weird to do the "oops...let's try this again..." thing so publicly but it's also interesting because I can look back and see where  I got stuck

I don't have a point, just something I noticed. I do think a big reason I was rebooting things is because  I didn't let stuff "marinate" enough and now all I do is let ideas marinate in my mind palace until I'm itching to write.

Oh, and I have to give it up to commenters for your patience!

By Your Side
It is still so bizarre to be sharing this fic! It still feels like my little secret delusion that should not be
seeing the light of day. . .

By Your Side started like a dare I had with myself. I got the gist of the idea and kept saying, "that would be crazy, right ?" "that would be dumb, right ?" and then "Is that even okay to do ?"

This story will be in two parts.

Recap 
Because UL3 is centered around Hurricane Katrina this story definitely takes place in 2020 but I could have never predicted coronavirus. So, clearly this is an AU where that doesn't exist. Although maybe in a few years when this passes I could write what my characters would do in a quarantine...
 

In late spring, 16-year-old Mason Clark and his family move to Connecticut for his Dad's job at the Coast Guard Academy. Over the summer he meets 16-year-old Nova Haley-Grace and now they are going to school together....

By Your Side I
Playlist
- 1 - Perfect Day by Hoku 
 -2 - Something Like This by Gordi
-3- Nuvole Biacnche by Ludivici Einaudi
-4- Hold On by Alabama Shakes
-5- The Story Never Ends by Lauv

So For Real This Time: So We Meet

UPDATE:
I wrote this post well, well, well before the world got turned upside down. A piece of me feels weird posting it now. But who knows if there will ever be a good time again ? I don't know if I believe in escapist media being a balm for bad times but I also know me not posting it won't make things better? IDK the answers, I just wanted to acknowledge it.  

And if you do need escapist fiction ? I sort of see this as a fluff bomb. My other fics are a little more serious so I may hold off on those.
 

It's fanfic time! I am excited to invite you all into this weird thing I spent the second half of my 2019 on. No more pranks!

Night Out Prank
That was just a little fun on my part. I was scrolling through old Lile posts for reasons and I got tripped up by her prank all over again ! It made me want to do one...I don't remember much of the process after that.

I intentionally didn't share the actual story after that because I was afraid you all would still be mad at "fictional" fictional Rhett. And it's funny because you could really write him secretly cheating into any story he's  in but I swear he would never.

I also love that you guys wanted to find the good in that story even when don't like what I was doing. But I'm digging into uncharted territory now so hit me with your honest thoughts.

Give Me Three Years, Yall
It's so funny that Lile was joking (maybe?) about her 2023 plans in the Sincerely, Emile comment section because I feel that (for me anyway) if you give me three years I can do anything. I posted One Last Thing in 2017(!) and WinterWonderland asked me about doing a Grown!Juliana POV. Well, I did it with EPOH...it just took three years!



It also took me three years to go from Compulsion to Sweet Prince if you can believe it! That means I'll likely figure out FZA sometime in 2021 ?

So We Meet
For some reason I have two versions of this cover. I made these before I'd even finished the story. The one on the right is the final.

I just realized on the website I took off the tagline so these versions have a little bit of a spoiler about which two serials are about to cross over...but the reveal happens pretty quickly anyway.

Our narrator in this "fanfic" is Mason Clark. This takes place a few months after the events of EPOH. Mason  and his family just moved to Connecticut and he is going to me some familiar people in a whole new way....

So We Meet
Playlist 
- 1- Lately by Noah Cyrus
- 2 - Classic by MKTO
- 3- Golden by Harry Styles
- 4- Passenger by Noah
-5 -Way Back in by Ages and Ages

I'm a Fanfic Writer: Let's Toe Dip into Night Out!

I'm scared. . . so scared. Today I am posting a fanfic. I'm not as finished with my fics as I want to be but I feel like I need to get the ball rolling to get through this writer's block. Someone please hold my hand  . . .

Night Out!
I've decided to start these fanfic posting with Night Out, which might just be the story of my heart. I've been sitting with this idea for a long time and I didn't think I could do it but then the EPOH comment section  bought it together. 

This is going to be a little bit different, a little bit sexier (and a little bit taboo 😳). It's from Rhett's perspective, which I feel like I haven't done much with. I'm going to start by sharing the prologue and then chapter 1.

Background
This takes place after EPOH, about a year after the Clark family moves to Hartford, Connecticut for Rhett's new position at the Coast Guard Academy. The Academy is in New London but they live in Hartford because there actually isn't much in New London.

Night Out Prologue
Playlist
-1- Secret Love Song by Jason Derulo

Chapter 1 Playlist
-1-Lego House - Ed Sheerhan
-2- Skyscraper -  Sam Bailey
-3- Let Her Go - Gavin Mikhail

Nova 3: Orgins and Picspirations

It is hard to find picspirations for Nova because I imagine him as looking pretty young and it is hard to find younger models.  26-year-old model Ton Huekels (why yes, I can tell you all about Scandanvian model Instagram) is close-ish if he was a decade younger, his hair was lighter and it went to his shoulders.

My Holland inspy is 17-year-old Sophia Lillis from It, but with longer hair.

If this model had a few more wrinkles on his face he'd been a good Luce. Luce is....64 since this is 50 years after Vice. Sara is 80 and Minnow is 66 and I imagine her with some Fran Drescher vibes:

Where Did Nova come from ?
I'm going to talk a  little bit about Nova's origins. The idea of an older Grayson originated from a comment on Sunshine. Someone said something about what it would be like if Haley never came back and Luce raised Grayson. At first I was like, well he'd be this meek, obedient child who was afraid of his intimidating stepfather.

But then I realized...oh, no he'd definitely rebel.

I saw hints of this when he decides to leave Arkham in Sunshine to find his Dad.

So while Haley does survive Sunshine, both he and Luce are pretty strict because they want to protect Nova. Haley is very much afraid someone is going to hurt Nova like he was hurt.

Nova also has ADHD--I originally wrote this in explicitly but took it out because I'm not sure they'd still call it ADHD in the future ?

Website Update
I'm doing it ! I still need to get a few stories linked but I'm getting there. I did it! I combined some of the 2-3 part stories into one page and tried to update any broken links. If you are looking for anything older than Blessed Hearts it is on shawnaharrison.yolasite.com

Nova 3
After messing with Kenneth Maxwell, Nova parties with his best friend Holland at Cheek's, a Daughters of Fury bar. He goes home and has a fight with Luce because he was doing cocaine and  is currently on probation for a possession charge. Nova is now being made to go back to school for the first time since his Dad died and in a fit of anger he storms into his parents bedroom (where Luce doesn't go) and falls asleep on the fire escape.

Nova 3
Playlist
- 1-  Fuck it All Up by DOLF, JVZEL
- 2-  Going Under by The Album Leaf 
- 3 -  Issues by VSQ
- 4 -  Already Gone by flious, Emily Warren 
- 5- If The World Was Ending by JP Saxe (This seems like a NA-verse song)
- 6 - Ruin My Life by Zara Larson

Do You *All* Have Paradox Lines: Meet Nova (Nova 2)!

CP!Shawna: What are those ?

SHV: Um....I blame Lile ?

Do you all have paradox lines ? I did these in 2019 but in my EPOH comment section one of you asked about variant covers! And in the last comment section someone asked about reading order.

I started to just do new "looks" for some of them but I got carried away. I forgot about Last Regrets and The Answer is Yes until right before this went up so those got tacked on the end even though they are prequels. They also look the best because I finally figured out the effect and learned I could stack the longer names.

For those counting at home that comes down to 17 stories about Vice; 3 full serials, 8 novellas and 6 short stories written by me and 1 short story from Lile. It's a weird feeling to have written so much about these characters but to feel like I haven't said much of anything ?

I feel like the order is good, except maybe Bright Lines and Sweet Prince could be swapped. Also Little Miracles before Sunshine ?

These images will be live on the website in the next few days....hold me to it, guys. My entire website is very out of date so by next post that should be fixed.

Nova
Grayson "Nova" Haley-Grace is 16-years-old and has been put in charge of keeping Maxwell at Bright Seas. After messing with Maxwell a little, Nova calls someone named Holland and heads to Cheek's--a bar on the same property as the Daughters of Fury (The SJW motorcycle club Colette started) Inferno West charter. 

Nova 2
Playlist
-1- Sunflower by Post Malone
-2- I Think I'm Okay by Machine Gun Kelly
-3- Stressed Out by Kinna Grannis
-4- Faded by Alan Walker

Let's Try Something New: Nova

I'm about to share a Vice-shaped thing I haven't talked much about. Well, except for when I was talking about not talking about it. 

Dear Lile
Lile always reminds me what it is like to be on the other side of this serial thing even though I'm currently in an opposite place than her. I am working on SO many little things and I want to share them all but they have an order. Freeing myself to write shorter has really saved me.  I wish I could look forward to 2023 but I have NO idea what I'll be doing then.

Also, LILE has indoctrinated me into Pinterest MFA and this is my current favorite piece of advice-ish pin:

In my head my fanfics were going to be these cute 3-4k thought experiments but (aside from the first one I'll share codenamed SWM)  they are all inching towards 10-12k. I've been striking through text with stuff that could go so hopefully I can make the fanfics more concise. I'll share more about them in the future but first....

UL Wrap Up
I'm going to be honest, when I finished EPOH I really thought I was done with UL and the Clarks were going off into the sunset to their next HEA. But you guys  picked up on some loose threads in EPOH and I must have subconsciously picked up on them too because one of my longer "fanfics" is less of a fanfic and more of a "What If" continuation of Rhett and Juliana's relationship.

What do I mean by that ? It's something that could be canon but I'm not sure if I want it to be ? It's real blob shaped right now. I never saw it as as continuation of EPOH when I was drafting but now I see how unfinished EPOH really was.

Nova
I think I mentioned this story briefly in one of my older blog posts. Nova is another one of my weird thought experiments combined with my obsession with over-correcting the Haley/Maxwell situation.

Anyway, let's toe-dip !

Nova 1 
Playlist
-1- The Light by The Album Leaf
-2- Don't Get Any Closer by Eluvium
-3- Kiwi by Harry Styles