Friday, July 5, 2019

Suing 1D (Pulse7)

 

I didn't know much when I go started on Pulse but I knew I wanted to write this collar pin in somehow.



Dear Lile,

I think you may have to sue Liam Payne and Rita Ora because this music video has some SERIOUS Litany Lane vibes. Tattoos aside:


CPShawna: Why...why were you looking at that music video ?
SHV: The 50SG soundtracks have been music finding gold

I'm trapped in this meme right now with Secret!Vice...memes post incoming:
















Pulse 7

Pulse 7
Recap
Luce figures out  Linz was seeing someone named Fisher Cross at the Magnolia restaurant and confirms his identity with the sommelier, but then he has a malfunction with his cybernetics and forgets everything.  He never said the name to outloud and is now back to the drawing board....

PLAYLIST
-1- Overwhelmed by Trevor Ransom
-2- last piece by Lykke Li
-3- Bibo no Aozora by Riyuchi Sakamoto
-4- Take Me To Church by Tomas Lee

Saturday, June 29, 2019

Better (Pulse 6)

Dear Lile,

This image gave me serious Paris Prince vibes (I think Cillian's looks the best/most natural). My next few posts are going to have some Dear Lile sections but that's just because if I come across something that doesn't work to me I immediately go see if it applies to the Lile-verse.



 
Onwards and Upwards
Keanu Reeves is having a year and after watching him in the trailer for the new videogame Cyberpunk 2077 I can totally see him in the Vice-verse.



Looking into the video game trailer led me to this interesting thread about how much of cyberpunk is stepped in late 80's xenophobia about Japanese domination. It's interesting to me because I never saw it that way but now I 100% see it. There is a lot of Orientalism in cyberpunk...particularly in films like Bladerunner. It's just something I'm thinking about. I think it must have been in the back of my head, because I intentionally added other "ethnic mafias" to Vice but I never fully unpacked what was going on in the genre.


Speaking of learning new things, if I had known the words when I started writing Haley's probably would have been nonbinary. I don't know if I mentioned this before but, in my head he is gender nonconforming but identifies as male.

Not a fun blog post but some thoughts on my mind. I want to do a gif post but I don't have much to say and I really want to keep Secret!Vice....erm, secret ?  I have no idea why.

Recap
Haley and Luce pay a visit to Linz's mom and discover her mother doesn't know she is dead and  is still talking to Linz over chat messages.

Pulse 6 
Playlist
-1- Dusty Window by Caponium 
-2-  Doria Island Song by Olafur Arnalds

Saturday, June 22, 2019

It me

(I've had this post drafted forever so we're just going to get right into it)


Luce and Minnow
If you remember where we last left off it was a slap slap kiss *and then some* between Luce and Minnow. When I say I've been writing the tension in their relationship for a while I really mean it. This is from early in Vice when Minnow and Jean take Alan out after surviving the nuclear warning.

“Have fun spending the night with mommy,” Minnie coos in a baby voice, bending her finger at Luce.
I noticed him for the first time in the room. He was sitting on the floor in the corner, surrounded by a series Holoscreens.
“I’ll go too.” He says quietly and stands up to join us.
I barely recognize his voice because it is the first time I’ve heard him speak when he isn’t screaming or yelling.
 “Yeah, right. Isn’t it past your bedtime ? ” Minnie laughs as she jerks his arm and messes up his mass of hair.
“Shut up, I’m only 3 years younger than you.”  He retorts, harmlessly pushing her hand away.
Luce turns to Jean who is standing up by the door.
 “Let me come , Jean.” He says
“Eh, maybe sit this one out little brother,” Jean replies with a weak smile .
“Don’t be ma-aaa-d.” Minnie teases in a sing song voice. “C’mere I’ll give you a goodnight  kiss !”
She put her arms around him and holding him tight, leans in to kiss his neck.
“Stop. Get away from me!” Luce screams  trying to squeeze out of her grasp.
“Is the little baby having a tantrum ? It must be way past your bedtime ,” she baby-talks again and starts to go for his lips.
“Stop it !” Luce continue as he  finally wrestles himself of her arms.
“Aww,” she coos, grazing her fingernails over his face.” Are you going to cr-“
Before she can finish the back of his hands flies across her face. Hard.

.....
“Crazy bastard.” She mumbles when we hit the main street and I can feel the upcoming buzz of people.
“You know, baby , you need to just leave him alone, sometimes.” Jean sighs
“Oh, sure take his side,” she mumbles. “ He is such a spoiled brat.”







“It’s pasta ala vodka ala moi !,” Minnow shrieks to me holding out a spoon.

“Shut.Up.” Luce grumbles at her from the corner of the room where he is sitting and staring.

“C’mon Alan ! Try it ! I don’t know why it doesn’t have actual vodka in it, so I put some in!,” she continues even louder.

I take the spoon and taste it, it’s good and I can still taste the remnants of the alcohol.

“I like it.” I say quietly.

“Yay!” She giggles. “I just NEVER know, so I’m glad you give me your opinion instead of being a little bitch.”

And that does it.

Luce storms over to Minnie and before she can react, grabs her little gun off her hip and goes for she and Jean's bedroom....Luce ignores everyone else in the room and puts three shots into Minnie's vanity mirror before Sara pins him to the ground and takes the gun. Minnie's vanity mirror cracks until it falls off in three disjointed pieces.


- Vice Chapter 5



“You are going to leave this house and you’re going to walk around, I don’t care if it kills you,” Sara Grace shouts as she opens the door. She waits for Minnow and I to walk out before pushing Luce behind us and slamming the door shut.
Luce throws a closed fist at the door.
“Are you going to cry ?,” Minnie teases him and pinches his cheek.
He tries to hit her , but she ducks under his hand and kisses his cheek. He shoves her into the concrete wall and she kicks his fake leg and even though she changed out of the stilettos the kick causes him to buckle down. He raises his fist to hit her face and I grab it.
“Let’s just go and get this over with,” I say, releasing him. 
 He flips me off.

This is from Sweet Prince:

Aunt Minnie approaches where I am standing awkwardly beside Luce...She has a tray of sparkling shots in her hand, but her eyes look haunted. She’d been Rayne’s assistant for 17 years. She’d been by his side until they very end.
Aunt Minnie makes a really crude joke about Rayne as she approached us; Luce laughs and take a shot. I take one too.
“Rayne Washington would want everyone to be wasted off their fucking asses by now,” Aunt Minnie says throwing back her shot.
“Hell, he’d be standing on the table beating his chest if he was here,” Luce adds taking another shot from her tray.
“This is our time,” Aunt Minnie says in a mimic of Rayne’s roar. “THIS IS OUR TIME!”
Luce laughs.
It was odd watching them get along, normally they were snipping back and forth like little kids.

There are a few more but you get the gist.

WIP  Update
Two years ago I wouldn't have thought I'd have any more WIPs but here we are. I'm all done with Pulse. My next Secret!Vice project is sitting at 17 19k. I also have about 6,000 words of flash fictions that go with it.  It's odd...it feels like something I'm writing just for me and the weird way my brain works but I am excited to share it...but first we need to wrap this up.

I'm also trying to close the loop on this UL and Sentinel thing....It's just not clicking ):


Recap
It's been a while so I'm going to recap what you need to know for this chapter

Isla Haley has been accused of murdering former Control bartender and current Virtue escort Linz Sharpe aka Lindsay Schofield. Luce and Haley start looking for answers against the cartel's orders and along the way Luce realizes Linz was a school friend of Charlotte Dory's and she had a crush on him when they were young.

At first Haley thinks Luce is responsible for the murder because he was there and missing on the footage. But when he discovers Luce was out buying him a gift during the murder they have makeup sex that is promptly interrupted by Minnow Dory. 

Also, Luce's cybernetics have started acting up...

Oh, Also, Gaige, a dominant at Control sets Haley up with on a new mystery client who specifically requested Haley.....

Pulse 5 
-1- Baer by Laminate Pet Animal
-2- MMXV by Jonas Hain
-3- In The Waiting by Kina Grannis 


" Minnow unzips her purse and hands me a little old fashioned key that looked like it was from a storybook.“That hideous cabinet behind the desk is a liquor cabinet.” She says. “Let’s have some real fun, boys.” "


Pulse 5
Playlist

Sunday, March 10, 2019

New Boys In Town


I was re-reading S&A a while ago  and I came across the post where Lile, in a Q&A, gives us the quote above. I'm going to start being our serial historian.





Unproblematic Faves
Dear Lile, since we cancelled Rick Fox , I have just discovered actor Rome Flynn:



He seems very Emile-ish

Including the Clierro nonsense side-eye


Also, yes, yes, since I have also cancelled Jared Leto for being creepy to his Suicide Squad cast members I can see my Jean inspy being Robert Sheehan with a flat iron:


I mean


This pose in particular I find very Jean-like


Pulse Chapter 4

Playlist
-1- On An Island
-2- Bibo No Azora
-3- Turn Me On by

Recap
When Isla Haley is accused of murdering Virtue escort Linz Sharpe, Haley and Luce decide to investigate behind the cartel's back. Haley steals the client lists from that night from Jean while Luce goes to look at Linz's body. He learns from Alan she was stabbed with a knife from MBC's Casablanca collection and the stabbing occurred postmortem. Alan tasks a begrudging Alan Grey with figuring out what killed her.
Pulse 4
This chapter goes a little off the rails, but stick with me....


Tuesday, February 26, 2019

Less Dorito Chip ?



Body Inspy
Not that anybody asked but in my head Luce's body inspy is swole Chris Evans. It was grueling research to find these important images but I did it.




Although actually I imagine Luce being broader in the waist and having less of the Dorito chip shape.


Who Am I ?
So...Pulse is all drafted out and I'm 17,000 words into Future!Vice. Speaking of, Future!Vice it is sort of turning into my magnum opus of sorts...I have three flash fictions that go with it...And that's the last I'll talk about it until I'm closer to sharing it.

I should probably be working on TLS but I want to give this UL thing a once over because it is killing me that I wrote 3,000 good words in Summer 2017 and have just been starting at it. I've been doing some re-reading of UL3 and if I could re-write it I would. It's got so much drama. But I think having those soap operatic drama moments are apart of the series so I may put some of that into the UL short story.

Chapter 3
It's so strange to have this serial divided into "chapters" because I didn't really write with chapters in mind. Somebody asked me how this serial fit into Bright Lines and all I can say, without confusing myself, is that Haley has been at Control for a few years now.

Recap
The cartel takes Isla Haley into custody for the murder of Linz Sharpe, an escort at Control. Haley is upset at Luce for siding with the cartel and they take a break. Luce talks to Isla and she explains that when she left Linz was alive. Luce talks to Charlotte and looks at the security footage then goes to Control and tells Haley he will help him find the actual murderer. 

Chapter 3
Playlist
-1-  Lost In A Sea of Pillow and Blankets
-2- Hurricane
-3- Fyrsta

Saturday, February 9, 2019

One More Meme....

Literally me everytime Lile talks about liking United Light:



United Light is just such a crazypants story, that wanders all over the place and is just too much at times. It feels soap opera-y in the worst way because I just didn't know how to end it.  I do like Liberation better, but it also feels like a lot of messy moving parts. I was doing a lot of cartwheels to make the timelines work.

Character Inspys
I only have a few of these and none of them are spot on but have similar vibes. It's funny, I actually like that the younger Vice characters are in their late 20's to early 40's. They get to be the ones in charge instead of being under someone else.



Luce

So, Luce has some serious Richard Madden in Bodyguard vibes. Particualarly him in this lighting  but...less pretty boy.



I see his coloring as closer to Sam Heughan. I sort of love his smile in this picture.


Haley
The closest I could find for Haley is the model Emil Anderson but...more pretty boy.




And I imagine his hair length more like this:


Charlotte
She will always be a young Zoey Deschanel but with jet black hair and the bluntest of bangs.


Rias
I also found this model who looks a lot like Rias


Ashley Greene is my forever Minnow and she's actually around the age Minnow would be but Ashley has gone more blonde.



 This throwback is close to how I imagine her:



Recap
Luce is ordered to take Isla Haley captive for the murder of Linz Sharpe, a escort at Virtue. Haley and Luce get in a fight about it and Haley walks away from Luce to solve the murder on his own.

-1- Saman
-2- Interstellar
-3- Read My Mind by Raphealla

Sunday, February 3, 2019

Well This is Awkward...

10 minutes ago in my head:

  


So, we're going to shift gears. I want to finish The Lost Sentinel but if I'm being  honest with myself I'm not sure it's quite there yet. I lost the spark and I'm working to get it back. So we're going to put it on pause and  I'm going to briefly switch gears and share a little bit of my Lucley serial aka....(scroll)
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CPShawna: Ehhhhhhhhh, I don't know about that title
Shawna: Whaaat ? Whhhhy ? You know how hard titles are and it to me months to get this one!
CPShawna: Meh.
Shawna: Meh ?!
CPShawna: It doesn't convey the new genre you are working in with this
Shawna: Okay...well, what do yo have in mind ?








Shawna: Wait...why did we make another cover image ?
CPShawna: ....procrastination is a hell of drug

The Process
Something that has been throwing me off about my latest serial (TLS, Pulse and Future!Vice) attempts is that I'm writing them as one big document and not as individual chapters like I did with everything else. In some ways it's easier but it also make "milestones" hard. I'm not thinking in chapters anymore which makes it hard to write ahead. I don't think I could have written Compulsion this way with all the POVs but I definitely like having the big document for searching purposes and I like to see the word count tick up.

Pulse is currently 16,000 words and all I can think about is those writing zones I'd go into during UL and pop out 10,000 word chapters!

Future!Vice
I am having so much fun writing this and I cannot wait to share it. I re-read Vice for it and it wasn't as cringy as I thought it would be. Vice is so much what I wanted it to be and I haven't quite been able to master that cyberpunk edge ever since. Pulse has a real light cyberpunk touch and Future!Vice is even lighter.

Pulse
This takes place a year after Sweet Prince. I tried to write it in a way that it doesn't need a recap but here's a quick refresher:

Haley works at Control, a private no limits sex club inside Jean Dory's brothel,Virtue, to pay for a hit on Maxwell.When Rayne Washington dies Haley fears the terms of his hit might be renegotiated so he tries to do it himself but fails and gets Twyla Banner--Luce's sister implicated. The Cartel negotiates with Maxwell to give him a multi million dollar campaign donation in exchange for Twyla and Haley's unofficial pardon. Sara wants Twyla to stay in the safe house just in case but instead Twyla goes off with her best friend/new girlfriend Colette and Haley goes back to the club where he is working to payback his new debt to the cartel. 

Also, after the failed assassination attempt Luce and Haley makeout and decide they'd like to keep doing that and start a consenting dominant/submissive relationship.


Pulse 1
Pulse Playlist
- 1 - End
- 2- Atoms - Said The Sky Remix